I kinda wish I knew these people

Barack My World

People, I know this man is 45 and a politician. But looking at this picture, how can one think of anything except “This man’s wife is a lucky, lucky woman.”

I think that even the boyfriend would agree with me.

I find it interesting that someone I know thinks Hillary Clinton will be the Democratic Party’s Presidential candidate. I cannot imagine that Hillary would have the ability to convince between 15,000 to 20,000 Texans to stand outdoors in bad weather for an entire afternoon. Texas is a notorious red state, with our governor turning into Bush Jr. The fact that Barack Obama was able to pull together people of many different races, backgrounds, and ages fully supports my belief that we will be able to vote for this man come November ’08. Then again, this happened in Austin, probably the most liberal city in Texas. Oh well. Maybe the state will follow in our footsteps.

I’ve heard some claim that Hillary will get the vote simply because she’s a woman and don’t all women want to support her? NO! (I say emphatically) The fact that she’s a woman shouldn’t enter into the equation. Her politics are questionable. First she supported the war, then she didn’t. This same flip-flopping cost Kerry the presidential vote in ’04. What makes people think that she’ll somehow be able to rise above it?

I’ve only scratched the surface of both candidates (I haven’t even begun considering other Democratic hopefuls) and I intend to find out more about them as we draw closer to the primaries. I know that Obama supported the bill to build a fence along our border, which I oppose. So we’ll see if anything else comes up about either that will help me make a better informed decision. But as it stands now, I’m hoping Obama’s name will be on the ballot next year.

Any opinions out there? Got some love for a candidate yet?

Clap Your Hands Say Yeah

Does anyone else listen to this band? I’m loving their new album right now. Especially “Satan Said Dance,” which you can hear by going here.

A caution: if you don’t like weird voices and electronic music, please don’t listen to the song. You will not enjoy it. And you will be angry with me for wasting your time. And I really like you and want you to stick around.

My pity party has dulled a bit in severity, only because I just got an email from a friend who I haven’t seen in, almost 2 years? Say it ain’t so! She found me through the wonders of the internet, and hopefully I will see her soon. I should really reply to her email instead of just talking about it on the web.

UPDATE: The link to my Myspace page no longer has the song mentioned above. Now it’s got Peter Bjorn and John. Also a band I’m in love with at the moment.

Pity party

I’ve just come to the horrifying realization that I have no idea what I want to do with this life of mine. I know I’ve written this before, but it’s a recurring theme in my life and if this blog is about anything, it’s about what’s going on in my head.

I decided to poke around at different universities in the area to get a feel for what’s out there in terms of graduate study. I’ve had a few ideas of what I’d like to maybe try out, but there’s nothing that’s jumped out at me and made a great impression. In order to even think about applying to graduate school at most places, I’ll need to have three good reference letters from professors. At this point, I know of one professor who worked with me almost three years ago. I was not motivated in my college life to make friends with professors, so I don’t have much to go on. That means that the free classes I can take at the university where I work will have to give me ample opportunity to meet and kiss professors’ asses. Can I do that with a full-time job? Do I even want to?

Again, nothing in a graduate catalog really tells me that I want to try for it. I’d much rather find a job that I love than study some more, although I’ve always thought that the Sound Recording Technology program at Texas State (formally Southwest Texas) sounded so interesting. But I never thought I could do something like that. Nowadays I still feel like most things are probably beyond my reach, and if the music department at Texas State tells me this is too, I think it’ll take me a while to bounce back.

I apologize for this rambling post, but a flood of emotions is hiding behind my eyes right now, and typing is the only thing I can do to keep from breaking down at work. I can’t stand administrative duties; I hate being cooped up doing something I don’t like for pay that barely helps me get by. I don’t want to continue down this road, and yet I don’t know what road would be best for me. When I make my next move, it needs to be one I have little or no reservations about. I can’t afford to spend the next few years walking down a path that, in the end, holds no pot of gold.

I guess the bottom line is that I’m terrified of the future. I’ve told people that I’m interested in certain things, but that’s usually just been to give them something to hear (and give me something to say). Now I’m realizing how hard anything I try to do will be. And I’m a bit discouraged.

Sorry gang. Hopefully tomorrow’s post will be brighter.

Uninspired

Hi. Lately I haven’t had much interesting happen to me, so I guess I’ll just talk about some things that have entered my mind in the past few days.

On Monday I had an appointment to give blood. I’d only done this once before in my life, and that was for extra credit in a biology class. And I would have sold my soul for extra credit in that biology class because people, I’m not that good at science. Anyway, we (my roommate and I) walk into the donor clinic about 5 minutes before my appointment. The lady at the reception desk stood up to greet us with a very nice “Hi, how are you doing today?” To which I replied, “Fine, how are you?” To which she replied, “Are you here to save a life today?” To which I replied with a chuckle and “Well, I have a 6 o’clock appointment, so..” It was an awkward moment, because for once I just couldn’t contain the laughter at the statement. How do I respond to that? “Yes, I’m here to be better than most human beings and give blood so that others may live.” Sure, that’s what I was thinking, but who in their right mind would actually say that? Damn, I should have said that.

I recently renewed my vehicle registration through the mail. Well, recently means yesterday. And it goes out at the end of this month. Oh well. As I was sitting at work doing my bills (because there was NOTHING to do at work earlier this week), I looked through all of the little leaflets they stuff in the vehicle registration envelope. Turns out that for $30-$40 I could have gotten a license plate that said “God Bless America” or “God Bless Texas” or my personal favorite, “Fight Terrorism.” Actually, I can’t remember right now if it said “Fight” or “Stop,” but you get the idea. I wasn’t surprised that TXDOT would have something like this, but it still shocked me nonetheless. It just seemed to me like a very loud declaration that “this state loves our President and he can do no wrong!” Ugh.

I’m currently putting off my i312 homework. I hope you guys follow that link and see that I now have two blogs. What fun.

I’ll hopefully be able to post a bit more in the future, but lately these days have been dragging me down. I hope everyone’s doing well.

Summer’s here!!

Well, maybe not. But I sure do have some great summer vibrations going on. I just walked to Jamba Juice and got drinks for all of us at work. And it’s bea-u-ti-ful out there. The sun is out, the wind is blowing, winter has left us; at least for the next few days.

Now, when I saw winter I’m obviously not talking about real winter. Although there was that time we had snow that stayed on the ground for an hour or two. In fact, most would probably call our winter fall. But to me, a native Texan, it’s winter. Because I had to walk to work in temperatures below 40 degrees many, many days (approx. 20). Way too many days for my comfort.

So the moral of this entry is this: I’m beginning to realize that I’m a true Texan. Because the moment the weather started to get warmer, my mood lightened. I’m sure part of this mood enhancement is due to the protein boost I got in my Caribbean Passion, but people, I like warm weather. I don’t really like sweating on my way to work, but I love sitting on the porch after work, going to baseball games, driving with my windows down, and whatever else comes with summer. I love it. And I’m ready.

On death and tea

Saturday I went to the funeral of a woman I’ve known, well, I guess most of my life. She was a member of the church I grew up in, and was in the church choir (of which I was also a member). In recent years I’ve gone to church less and less, so I haven’t see her too much lately. She had an aneurysm (I can’t believe I spelled that word right the first time) early last week, and died on Wednesday. As she wasn’t a relative and, like I said, I hadn’t seen her in a while, I wasn’t too torn up about it when I found out. Just sad. But getting to the church and seeing others crying in the choir loft really got to me. Seeing her husband got me even more. I just don’t like funerals or death. I’d very much appreciate it if life could get rid of those sometime soon.

For no reason at all, the boyfriend gave me a gift on Friday night. Yes, that’s right. No reason at all. He’s of the opinion that he doesn’t need a day to love me more, and I’m perfectly happy with that. Especially when he gives me gifts for no reason at all.

He gave me the new Shins cd, “Wincing the Night Away.” If you’re a Shin’s fan at all, you’ll probably poop a brick over this cd. It’s good. It’s different; not every song is Shins-y. They’ve expanded their horizons, it would seem.

My friend gave me Belle and Sebastian’s “The Life Pursuit” the other day and it’s been all I can listen too. With, of course, the exception of the present given to me for no reason at all. I just can’t get over how all over the place it is and how they’ve managed to make every song perfect.

On tea, well, there’s a song on “The Life Pursuit” called “For the P***e of a Cup of Tea” that keeps getting stuck in my head. Also, I’ve had a few cups of green tea with honey lately, and they’ve been rather soothing. Especially because they come out of my Office Space mug.